Last post I was ready to take on the world.
This post, I’m thinking maybe it would be best if I just slunk away and holed up somewhere with my dog. Maybe on a mountain, out of cell-phone range.
Writing, especially publishing, is much like ping pong.
You’re amazing – You suck – You’re brilliant – You’re an idiot – You’re happy – You’re devastated.
Maybe it’s the nature of an artist (is that what I am?) to feel such high highs and such low lows.
Today it is gray, cold, unwelcoming.
My agent informs me that my re-written manuscript (the one in which I was certain I’d finally nailed it) is still not up to snuff.
I began to re-read my in-progress manuscript, remembering how fabulous I thought it was when I started and realized it’s horrible. Plain horrible. I don’t even want to read it.
The article I’m working on keeps spinning in circles. I can’t find a flow, a structure, or even, really, a point.
Several of my latest efforts to ‘try something new’ to get my books out there, have been met with technicalities, false hopes, no-thank yous, and hidden (impossible) costs.
Facebook, Amazon, and Goodreads, the major marketing tools of most authors, have once again, changed the rules and I’m too untechy-savy/late-to-the-game/old to figure it out.
I need a pep talk.
I can (still) do this.
But maybe for today, I’ll need to embrace the yuck. Let it have its way. Eat the leftover apple cobbler, stay in my jammies, and lay around reading books written by real writers who know what they’re doing.
Just for today, I will not try. I’ll hang out with my dog. Embrace the suckiness of my situation in all it’s awful glory.
Tomorrow, I’ll get back at it.
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3 thoughts on “Embrace the Yuck”
Those ups and downs sound just like teaching…I feel your pain! A day off will work wonders. You got this!
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Everything will work out, just not as uou saw it on it’s first path. Remember always everything happens for a reason and also when a door closes you can always get out through a window. If I can help in any way, please let me know.
I have lots of those sucky days…the trick it to not stay stuck in the suck! LOL Best cure I found was grounding myself out in nature. Barefoot on the earth even in the cold, not for long periods of time. It seems to take the negativity out of me.
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Thanks Dena – I’m working at pulling myself out of the suck. The weather the last few days has certainly helped. And you’re right – nature heals. Thanks for your wise words!